Wednesday, July 16, 2014

The Best Little Things

Summer is a mixed bag. Some of the days are absolutely great and then the next day is horrible. Last week there was one day where everyone was in a good mood and got along. Meg gave me a pedicure and a manicure (her favorite hobby right now is doing nails). Then she did my hair...a really tight pretty dang good ponytail. :) Then she requested a makeover with a special request of "cat eyes". She wanted to look like Taylor Swift. That was followed by a good hour practicing lip syncing in front of the bathroom door. Then she requested that I film her lip syncing. Pretty cute. I played catch with Adin and threw the ball for him to practice batting. Gracie wasn't teething and napped well. I felt pure contentment. The very. next. day. was BY FAR the worst day of the summer. The kids were fighting incessantly  and very disrespectful to me. It ended up earning them 2 hours of extra work on Saturday as a punishment. That's how it goes, I guess.






I adore these kids of ours. They bring me the most joy. It's a struggle right now because I'm not sure I've ever felt more stressed and depressed than right now. Brian despises his job and we really hate the town. I'm trying to take on the mantra, bloom where you are planted. I'm trying to make the best of the situation but overall I feel so low. I think it's a combination of never being the same since my thyroid removal, coupled with stress about Brian's unhappiness, coupled with my own unhappiness. I also finished nursing Grace this week, which was so much more emotional for me this time. I actually wrote a post about it, but haven't posted it  yet. Anyways, just a lot I'm dealing with that makes me have far less patience than I normally do. Then I get frustrated with my lack of patience and end up feeling even more down on myself. Vicious cycle. I am so hoping something will get better.

I wanted to document a couple of conversations with Adin. We were eating breakfast together. He insists that I wait for him every morning to eat. He MUST eat his breakfast with me. Meg, on the other hand, wont eat breakfast with anyone because she hates the way people chew. Anyways, he said that his plan in life was to find a girl that loves Disneyland and marry her. Then he would need to get a job where he made lots of money so that he could live in California and have season passes. Then today, at lunch. He said, Mom, I know how getting married works. I asked, how. He said, well, first one person sees someone that they think is cute and then the other person thinks that person is cute too...and they just...get married. :) I love the way his mind works. I also love that he loves Disneyland as much as me.

Now for a little Gracie update. She is 16 months. She got her first 4 molars all at once and was miserable. I was constantly giving her motrin because she was in so much pain. Their all cut so we've had a little break where she has seemed a little better. She loves to give me loves. She will run up to me and give me a love on my legs, then run off and play some more. She is constantly grabbing my had to take me to the door or the TV or just to walk around with her. She goes and stands by her high chair if she is hungry. She switched from nursing to a bottle fabulously. She now gets super excited when she sees her bottle and blankie. She loves whatever meal we are having. The main snacks she likes are hot dogs, bananas, pears, and cheese. She loves Michael Jacksons, "Beat it". Adin started out booming it for her in his bedroom. They would go in there together and she would get so excited and dance. Now, Brian starts it on the computer and her eyes light up. She does this adorable high step dance with some spins and says "dika dika dika" in a high pitched voice. Not sure what that means, but she says it often...usually when she is happy. She also says uh, ohhhhhh. She uses her low voice for this one and emphasizes the ohhhh with a really wide o-shaped mouth. She'll say it over and over and is usually frustrated, chucks something, and then says uh ohhhhh over and over with an edge of frustration to it. She says da, da  very consistently when she sees Brian. She absolutely loves him and will sit at the computer with him while he surfs. The other day, I was certain she said "zozen" for the movie Frozen that she adores. I haven't heard her say it again though, so maybe not. She is still pretty stranger danger, but does love other little kids. She loves to go on walks and often holds my hand and drags me to the garage and then to the stroller. If I ever tell her we are going to go "bye-bye" she heads to the stroller and is ticked when we are actually going in the car. She still hates that. She brings an indescribable amount of happiness to me even if she is a little tough. :)

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